Recognizing My Whiteness

I remember the first time the twins vocalized their awareness that my skin was a different shade than theirs. The way it played out wrecked me. It was February and we were at Target shopping for bathing suits so they could swim indoors with me at the gym. M stumbled upon the Disney princess bathing … Continue Reading

Unseen

I sit down with a plan to write, but most days I don’t have the energy to recount the day’s memories or retell what we’re in the midst of because that requires reliving it. And right now, living it is hard enough. I don’t want pity or sympathy, but I refuse to sugarcoat it. The … Continue Reading

Beginning Again

Over one month ago now, sweet N came into our lives and flipped our house upside down (quite literally). Shakespeare’s, “Though she be little, she is fierce.” couldn’t be more relevant. N has invaded our hearts, which are now as soft and moldable as the play-dough she stomps into my pretty living room rug. She … Continue Reading

A Home Well Lived In

Several months ago I scribbled “I want a home well lived in“ on a blue sticky note at my kitchen table. I jotted the words down so fast they were hardly legible, but something urged me not to let the thought pass without giving it a permanent place. I stuck it on my desk right next … Continue Reading

Mama, Sort Of.

Never before have I experienced this kind of love. As I’m writing this, it’s been exactly seven days since our world was flipped upside down. “But you asked for this…” my conscious reminds me. “You’re damn right, I did,” my heart and soul snap back. E and I wanted to provide a loving and safe … Continue Reading

Dear Diary

I gave myself permission to take a month off blogging. I thought I needed it. Then, after a few days of suppressing the desire to scratch my itch. I sat and wrote. Freeing my soul, worshiping in a way I will never be able to express through words themselves. You’re my therapy. (And Lord knows … Continue Reading

10 for Your Weekend!

Do you believe in miracles? The Cubs won the world series! Holy guacamole. That was quite a game! Despite my husband’s die-hard love for the Tribe, I’m happy the curse has been broken. Miracles really do happen 😉 It’s a fun time to live in Chicago.  I wrote a guest blog post on the season … Continue Reading

Women, You Can Be Spiritual Leaders. (And You Should!)

I started writing this in my head a while ago. I began typing it up at my desktop the other day. And most recently, I had a phone conversation with one of my dearest best friends, Jess, which lead me to finish it up… because I have a feeling some girl out there needs to … Continue Reading

My Rotten Morning in Real Time

I set my alarm for 5:57 AM last night. I had every intention of waking up and going to a 6:25 AM workout class this morning. I woke up at 7:28 AM, sooo that didn’t happen. I rolled over and felt the empty space where E usually lies. I was reminded that this was the … Continue Reading

All Things Fall (Chili Recipe, Flannel Shirt, Candle, & Book)

‘Tis the season for throwing on a scarf, ordering the pumpkin spice latte, and consuming your weight in chili while tailgating at the football game on Saturday. Despite how cliche it is, I don’t hate it one bit. Fall is my absolute favorite season. (And not just because my birthday is in September.) Isn’t it funny … Continue Reading